Is there really a better term to describe life?
Something amazing happens. Everyone is happy. A day or so later something devastatingly awful comes along and knocks the wind right out of you and there you are again. Right back at the bottom trying to claw your way out of the pit.
This time last week we were on Cloud 9. We had just gotten things fixed up in the new place. We were comfortable and content. Travis was set to start a very well paying job come Monday, and life was looking really good.
This weekend, not so much. Things fell through with the job. Now he is back out on the grind again looking for something (anything) that might make it to where we can pay our rent next month or ya know, maybe keep the lights on or something like that. Honestly, I'm not even able to enjoy this pregnancy. This last time that I will ever carry a child within my body. I am ready to get it over with so that I can find a good daycare here and go back to waiting tables. It's never hard to find work waiting tables. I could at least do that until something better came along.
Really, though? I'm 38 weeks pregnant. I could blow any minute. Would anyone hire me now? I don't think so.
I'm not worried though. Well, not much anyway. We always make it, somehow. Usually it's by the skin of our teeth, but we pull through.
I'm just so thankful for the things we do have. We have wonderful healthy children. We have a comfortable little home with a roof that does not leak. We have the peacefulness of living far enough away from everyone that we are never bothered. I have a six year old boy who has always been spoiled to death by having to sleep with someone who just decided two days ago that he wanted to sleep by himself and has done so beautifully. I also have a 17 month old sweet baby that smiles first thing every morning when he wakes up.
I am blessed. There are so many less fortunate than I, and for all that I mentioned above I am thankful. I sit here on my comfortable love-seat, drinking my coffee with laptop in hand, and I realize that I have nothing to cry about. Nothing at all.
